What should I do next!....?
It was the last day of
the Himalayan trekking trip, ‘The Winter Trek’ and Iven was standing looking at
The Sun coming up above the snowcapped mountains. “Hai!.. What happen you
alright up there?” shouted Derik the camp guide. “Its cool I was just thinking…..You
know plans and stuff…..”
“That
is a good spot to think about …..you know ‘stuff’ and all”, said Brian, Bindly
followed up with a laugh. “hehe, aha”. They came up and stood next to Iven,
they did waste time they started talking immediately, “Sit…” said Bindly, “Sure
sis” followed Brian. Iven also sat down with a sigh.
“You alright? You been like, a bit off throughout the
trip you do hang out good when people are looking but you seem disturbed what’s
up?” asked Brian, “Oh! Come on tell us what you where trying to get away from
then you decided to come for this trip?” Bindly bolted out.
“ You
two are special you know , You just can’t help it can you you always want to be
there for someone how looks a bit sad, That could get you into trouble you
know, I should know, I have got it lot”
Iven started in a mature and bold tone. “Did that stop you?” Brain asked,
looking out into the open. “If it had I would have decided to come on this trip
, So it’s a No, A Big Fat NO!” explained Iven.
“Ok
we get it, you are at the verge of depression and you are forcing out of it
each time you feel like almost slipping. Tell us what happen, we want to help or
at least try.” Said the simply enthusiastic Bindly.
“Each time I go of
guard or be myself the goofy self I loose a friend, Each time I help by extension
of a friend, without that particular friend knowing…….”; “what do you mean by, ‘by
extension of a friend’, didn’t get it” Ivan’s narration was interrupted by Brian’s.
“I meant a friends brother or a friend’s friend or something like that!” Iven explained
with a slight taste of bitterness, for interrupting his narration.
“So as ‘I’ as in you
were saying,…..” Bindly help restart Iven and he continued with a small smile. “
Well each time I tried to help or when I tried to bond I kept loosing them. I mean
am I supposed to be on guard always, Should I become someone else to keep
friendships”
“Hai this is ….. Ok why
do you expect every single person too be your friend? You don’t need that many
just a few good ones” said Bindly. “Well those few good ones, those are the
ones I loose each time I be myself!.” Said Iven depressed and with a sagging
sholder.
“Where did this happen,
I mean the goofing around…..?” asked Brian querulously
“Coffee Shop, in a mall”
“ You complete idiot!”
shouted Brian. “Calm Down brother you might start an avalanche.” said Bindly
and continued to Iven, “What were you thinking, in that situation of-course her
would get angry. Every will judge her, you can’t really blame her for reacting”
“I don’t blame her for
anything. Fine I get it, I shouldn’t have been like that there. But she told me
that this is a public place and I shouldn’t be goofy… and I changed then
itself, but she just does accept that.”
“But wait how do you
know it’s a her?” asked Iven.
“Oh please, really that
is the most obvious thing ever, this reaction to this situation and you taking
it so hard; that will not happen if it is not to the opposite sex” explained Brian.
“I have to be on guard
I have to keep myself this perfect like character, People are leaving quite
fast, Everyone I wanted to share my any achievements with, any special occasions
with, all are leaving. Should I be on guard always, I only goof with a few
people, they can tell me I will with draw and I can change why are they
leaving? I just don’t want them to leave!”
Bindly smiled, “ There
there It’s Ok! I know you wish you had someone ok with everything you do how
would help you and tolerate you and scold you and when you change they will be
there and if you don’t’ change they will keep scolding that would be nice
wouldn’t it”
“Ya…” Iven murmured.
“What do you do when
you ‘goof’?” asked Brian
“I do this (putting his
around Brian); sometimes this (patting on Brindly’s shoulder); may this (gently
tapping on Brian’s nose); and maybe this to (knocking on Bindly’s head). Ya
things like that. Basically I don’t care if you are a boy or a girl I do some
of these. Plus I won’t care if you are a boy or a girl I will really punch you
in your face if you tic me of….”
“You're gona get punched
back!” stated Bindly. “Ya that is for sure!.....” Brian added.
“I expect that, I want
to get hit back ……otherwise it is bullying, I am bonding..!” Iven was using his
high pitched voice that he uses when he states the obvious.
“Hmmm……” sighed Brian, “Indeed….”
said Bindly……
{………………………….Comment your advice to Iven……………………………….}
