I Found a Diary Page

I Found a Diary Page

               If you meet some grow really close and get to know thinks about him. Will you expose them to the world, by forming farces like “I am doing it for the better of the world.” Well what I am about to do is something like that. But with a slight difference I am doing this because I was asked to. Try reading!!!...

               We all experience many things in our lives. Each of us thinking that our experience is far worse compared to the ones of others. But I always think to myself. If your experience is bitter why share it. If you feel like sharing, then why don’t you share what you learned from it. My dear friend today I will tell you my experience in love.
“A classic moral love story.”

               When first so her it was nothing. Actually I was a bit rough on her. When she talked to me I didn’t give much importance. It felt like some girl who was talking to me. But when she talked again it felt good. Then my whole outlook the way I behaved to girls changed. It on her, if I am able to interact with people better than I used to. It is completely her. Then I caught the usual statement, I don’t know when it grew over me but I fell in Love. There is more to it. I hardly realized it properly until the moment when a friend of mine told me that, this girl has an affair.

I didn’t tell this friend about her or my feeling, but she understood it. That’s the beauty of friendship.

               Now then coming back to the story, I was depressed and yes it took me a while to get over it. Though I found reasons to say that it was for the better, there are some true facts. We were similar!
I was calm and quite so was she. I knew I was unstable inside but only later did I realize that so was she. We didn’t complete each other, we were part of the same equation. We never met each other unless at sea.  We would have never been successful parents because as free as she is am as stern as it can get. Yes I am a free, a bit, but not the type she is. I can understand her stands now but after marriage it will different, because when we live together if compromise is needed. Then it will be a thorn on the road. If there is a thing that I have to understand her relation to others then there is a problem. If her interaction makes me think “What?” for a second then. Life can turn into a hell. Yes compromise can make life go on. To destroy someone’s freedom. That is not love.
You will ask me where we do it. When you ask other do something, wear something, go somewhere if they have a second thought, when you can’t realize it. There you are actually killing Love.

                I know she is one of a kind and I am another kind. To mix these us just because I want to that is not Love. As pure as love should be. If there is a decision from my side she should be able to take the same decision and keep it.
I promised not to love until I am properly settled. I fell in love but then I took a decision not to propose until I have settled in properly. She once did tell me the same decision. Yet she couldn’t keep it. Too bad.

               I make promises to keep and no matter what Family will come first. Let me find a family type girl. Who is restless as she is but calm. How can more of a sense than beauty. In the case of my first love, it was not beauty that attracted me, it was her character. I still love that character. But since she is in love with someone and she sees me from a different angel I will not go to hurt her. But if she needs me I will be here.

               If she ever reads this and finds out that it is about her that I am talking about, I would like her to know this. I have seen a change in you. You are not the same to me I don’t know why. May be you got to know that I love you. Can you tell me I that’s true. If not then why?